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Tonight’s Kaddish is a reading promised to Mira regarding a situation we discussed privately.<\/p>\n
My goal in this Kaddish was to remain focused on the emotions of the situation in question while playing, in an attempt to infuse those emotions into the music. I wanted to make a change of approach, from focusing on the technical musical matters of rhythm, notes, pacing, phrasing, shape, and so on, in a technical effort to evoke particular emotions, to embodying those emotions directly and seeing what happened in the music as a result.<\/p>\n
I viewed the opening statements and development sections as troubled wandering in the difficulty of the situation.<\/p>\n
A new idea came to me about the stopped section (the “why is it stopped here? what does it mean?” spot). As I arrived at that spot, it occurred to me that I hear the questions we have about the use of stopped horn in the passage\u2014the passage asks a question. So I asked the existential questions of the situation in mind as I played that passage: what does it mean? what is one to do?<\/p>\n
I viewed the final section\u2014what I’ve been thinking of as the affirmation\u2014as grappling with the impossibility of making life-affirming choices in situations that come wrapped in engulfing sadness.<\/p>\n
What are you supposed to do when the impossible might be possible? When the unspeakable has been spoken?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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