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Today is Nancy Ring’s Yahrtzeit. She died at home after a long struggle with ovarian cancer.<\/p>\n
Knowing that her death was coming, last spring I promised myself that when the day finally came that she was out of pain, I would play Kaddish for her. I thought about playing Kaddish for her for a year and a day, but I hadn’t made a decision about that. I still hadn’t played Kaddish five months later when I read Mira’s essay about Kaddish<\/a> and then wrote my own in response<\/a>, and I realized I had become emotionally backed up. That realization played a big part in my proposing this project to Mira.<\/p>\n Recording this Kaddish today on Nanc’s Yahrtzeit was difficult. This project has gone a long way toward helping both me and Mira heal from our grief, as we’ve each discussed elsewhere, and we hear from others about how it has helped them also. But I have not been through an entire year and a day of this ritual yet for Nanc, and although this is her<\/em> Yahrtzeit, it’s not the Yahrtzeit of my actively grieving. I did not feel ready to let go of my grief.<\/p>\n Perhaps I will be ready when this project matures and Mira and I, along with those who have joined us here, have completed a full year and a day of mourning.<\/p>\n Perhaps we never do feel ready.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Today is Nancy Ring’s Yahrtzeit. She died at home after a long struggle with ovarian cancer. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[216,253],"tags":[524,525,254,198],"class_list":["post-3178","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kaddish-in-two-part-harmony","category-podcasts","tag-bereavement","tag-grieving","tag-ritual","tag-yahrtzeit"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3178","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3178"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3178\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3183,"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3178\/revisions\/3183"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3178"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3178"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beitmalkhut.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3178"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}