I’m finally back from the business trip to Paris, and I’m relieved to be making a daily Kaddish podcast the usual way, using great microphones, a Blackbird Onyx, Pro Tools 9 on a Mac, and playing a horn again!
Sorry about the primitiveness of the Paris recordings, and for my not being able to post them until today. I have another, longer business trip to Asia starting on Friday, and I have no idea how I’m going to come up with eight more ways of doing the daily kaddish without an instrument along, but I refuse to schlepp a horn along for a week, so I’ll have to come up with something. Your ideas are very welcome!
Tonight’s Kaddish contemplates the loss of those we’ve already lost—when people who were already lost to us are lost again, finally, to death. I’m thinking here of estranged friends—spouses we’ve divorced—kids we’ve disinherited—older folks who’d disappeared into dementia—all those we’d already lost, only to lose them again much later.
We may have said goodbye already, and we may have made our peace with those goodbyes or not, but when those people die, the goodbyes become final—irrevocable—and the sadness we thought was behind us returns.
A kaddish for those lost ones, whom we lose again—and for all those who suffer in these new losses of the already lost. May the lost ones rest in peace, and may those who lost them again also have peace.